Fed Up

Whew! I can't believe I managed to squeeze in 6 oz. of turkey, a 1/2 cup of mashed potatoes, a 1/4 cup of stuffing, a 1/4 cup of squash, a sour dough roll, cranberry relish, a heaping mound of green bean casserole, a piece of pumpkin pie and a wedge of pecan pie! Yeah, sure. All of that and another piece of apple pie an hour later.

Seriously, I did pretty damn good with food yesterday. I got busy with getting ready to leave in the morning, so I never got the protein shake and ended up having just a sugar-free caramel latte from my Tassimo. During the drive north, I ate 1/4 cup of wasabi peas and 2 beef jerky pieces.

For our family dinner, I had about 2 ounces of turkey. And then I had two very small bites each of mashed and sweet potatoes, stuffing, green bean casserole, a SF jello with cranberries and apples in it, my Hot Fat Apple Crisp made with caramel syrup and a different topping and then, for dessert, I had my own SF Upside-Down Pumpkin Cheesecake Pie--1/4 cup with a dab of whipped cream.

I ate slowly, chewed well, often proclaimed the deliciousness of my selections and really did clear my junior-sized plate from the table soon after eating.

Around 7 o'clock, I nibbled on a bit more turkey. That, unfortunately, gave my head free reign to obsess about every other leftover in the house. And the pies were all still out. So I snitched from this one, sampled from that one poked into another. In all, I must have eaten only about 5 bites. But I got sick. I felt like an alien baby was bursting through my pouch. But my head wanted me to keep eating. So I left. Better to remove myself from the situation than sit there later and beat myself up for overeating.

I think my advance planning saved my ass--or at least avoided the extra 3 pounds I might have packed onto it yesterday. My family was very supportive. No one tried to get me to eat something I didn't want to. (Yes, sad enough, this was a strong likelihood.) My grandma and grandpa raved about my faux pie and my brothers didn't even blink at the sugar-free apple crisp. Another thing...no one made a big deal about what I was or wasn't eating. That was nice, just to be normal.